Unstable Mind

I just think sometimes how it would feel if I can do or can say anything of my mind without polishing it up or faking all the time. From the morning till the night all we do is pretend, pretend to be smart, civilized, calm, all those we are not, but denying the inner self which is wild happy and exciting. I can write it now but after writing all these word I will be back to the basic pretending game again, only say things that other people would appreciate in appropriate manner, it is life it is what being civilized means can’t deny that, can we? It will be a chaotic situation if everyone starts to say or things of their mind without considering others, but some moments are just should only to ourselves only to listen and obey our mind our feelings not faking anything. It is refreshing to act exactly how I am feeling inside, it is also funny. All good things are funny or sweet, and all bad things are grumpy and boring.

We can say that I am not a political person, but it will be a huge lie, we all do politics, we all are diplomat somehow, we talk, we plan, we manipulate people, and all of us want to shape situation according to our own needs, so how can we say that we are not political? Human mind is a complex thing and we created our society very intricately, with so many rules dynamics, patterns, and consequences, that natural instinct is not very common to us anymore, we do live in a complicated atmosphere and so we do stuff politically, little or in a bigger manner we all do politics. It comes naturally to us what is not natural to us is act normally just act like we feel.

Doing things according to a fix rule, or act as planed before, is a safe way to do stuffs, but doing something new out of the box, totally different, is not a easy, that needs a brave heart a little bit of a crazy mind, a dreamer. The earth evolves a star dies a universe change, time passes nothing is stable but in a small life time we humans thing all around us all the rules, all the rituals all the social norms like it always been the same and will be, but it is a illusion, nothing stays same forever, it is the greatest gift of nature, the uncertainty of living. We can do new things dream new things, believe in new ideas we can break our barrier and can be free.

I am a normal person, going to live a tiny life comparing to this huge universe, nothing around me is stable or forever, I am not bound in anything everything is changing around me the stars the universe the nature so why I have to be so settle so calm and so safe all the time?